Tig a Tag and a Tou

2009-01-19T22:49:00.002+08:00

meaningful lyrics.....

we always fail to see whats more important......

2009-01-05T22:33:00.002+08:00

time flies, hasnt it? 2 months were spent on doing internship. a wonderful experience i'd define it as. something that i dont learn from my textbook.

not only did i learn abt working life but i learnt how to deal with all types of ppl. interactions mattered so much in life. and i shall admit that it was a bit of self-learning cos i didnt undergo any training in the first month. i had to observe what my colleagues said abt the products to the customers . now you can ask me what you should consume if you have a certainnnn health problem. hahaha

so many things happened in these 2 months.

2008-12-25T22:37:00.001+08:00

hey turkeys, merry christmas!

2008-11-22T00:35:00.002+08:00

In the mood of babbling...

It is so in trend now to imitate. Not only runway fashion but so many others.
No wonder Marketing theory says: "No Unique Selling Proposition truly exists, because they will eventually be copied, somehow or rather".

2008-11-03T02:54:00.003+08:00

It's funny how we are always reminiscing/miss our "old" life... baby, kindergarten, high school, foundation, uni life.. basically everything that's gone or will be losing soon.

But we hardly appreciate the current life until it's gone.

Just a thought.

I miss then, too.... yet i know i'll be missing now. Soon.

2008-10-27T21:26:00.004+08:00

hahaha poser wannabe :P

hahaha nerd wannabe :P

hahaha bestie wannabes :P

2008-10-25T01:01:00.002+08:00

i miss going classes with you girls. miss asking stuffs that i dont understand before tests, and miss explaining things that i know.

and gossiping =P

in a way, we're connected to one another, the world is smallll. friends' friends.

but why after so many semesters only did we start "communicatiing". haha

but t'was funny whenever i thought of it.

i misssss attending classes laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2008-10-21T22:58:00.002+08:00

hhhhhhelloooooooo everybodyyyyyyy move your bodyyyyyy

im doneee with my finalssss. im doneeeee with my 2nd year(minus waste management cos i dropped hahaha).....

im done im done im done.

but im so gonna miss the friends that id known there. i mean the gang from taylors. they made me happy. theyyy surprised me at chili's today with all the workers singing bday song. so malu T_T

but got free brownies lol.

all in all im happy but they had to make me emo as its my last day in that uni =(

2008-10-18T23:30:00.002+08:00

i need a pair of listening ears. i need someone to listen but not someone to understand. because theres no way anyones gonna understand now..

there areent many that i can count on, anymore.

but i thank those who make themselves available for me to count on.

2008-10-06T18:43:00.003+08:00

remaining things to deal with right now...

human nutri midterm 8th oct
human nutri final 11th oct
chellez's bloody 21st birthday party 11th oct
internship job application by nov
uni offer/conditional/unconditional letter
ielst by nov?
visa by dec?

i missss my current bunch of uni mates. =(

2008-09-29T00:14:00.002+08:00

after reading the 10 journals REPEATEDLY, i still couldnt understand a single thing. like omg, my brain's so lagging.

how to do a 15-page review article based on 10 journals. and i keep seeing words like bifidobacterium , lactobacillus, probiotics, prebiotics, incubation, inoculation, acidity, bla bla bla bla bla.

goshhhhhhhh, so hard to comprehenddddddd the journals. why do ppl write journalsssss in the first placeeeee? sighhhhhhhhhhhhh

*screams for help*

2008-09-26T22:43:00.002+08:00

my uni's being funny to me. they got me a 1.8k job for my internship but nvr called me up to go for the interview and blacklisted me in the didnt-turn-up-for-the-interview list lol.

and now right.............they're arranging another job for me. a post at GNC.

i applied for a job in GNC by myself weeks ago, went for interview and got rejected. and now they're getting me to that place. eeks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i want that fonterra jobbbb. anlene mmilkkkkk! not the fonterra in china btw. hahaha. later end up producing melamine-contaminated milk.

its not that i'd like to discriminate china. they shouldnt cheat the protein content.

*am gonna prove that i studied hard for food chem last sem, though i did badly lol*

Kjeldahl method(not sure if the factories use this method), which is a method approved by AOAC used for protein content determination has its limitations in determining the protein by not giving true protein contents. as long as it has a nitrogen in the molecule, it'll be detected as another protein. hence, it's able to give a higher value of protein but does not give the ACTUAL value.

but why la they wanna put babies' lives at riskkkk for the sake of money? why isnt another method developed to give ACTUAL values of protein content?.

hope china's gonna learn from this. i'm currently banning m&m's from entering my mouth hahaz. i even banned canned mushrooms lol.

other than melamine, they had other types of contaminations that occured before. all the banned preservatives, carcinogenic substances and all.

okla i stop being so irritating ok. bye

2008-09-21T20:31:00.004+08:00

so much things to do yet so lil time T_T. i regret saying im addicted to being busy.

this sem is by fat the busiest. considering that its my last sem. nolar im not graduating yet.

things to deal with right now...

human nutrition test 1 24th sept (yet to study)
food microb report 3 and 4 due on 24th sept
food microb assignment due on 29th sept
human nutri assignment due 3rd oct
human nutri midterm 5th oct?
food micro midterm 2nd oct?
human nutri final 11th oct
internship job application by nov
uni application by oct?
ielst by nov?
visa by dec?

how larrrrrrr! im dedicating nov n dec for internship. how to get those things settled in less than 1 month? T_T

other than uni sttuuffs, ive to deal with poslajus.

but ive never been this happy in uni before hehe. this semmmm is soooo niceeeee as im blesssssed with good friendssss. and i dont need to force myself learning mandarin to adapt to the environment anymore lol.

for once and for all, when i mention 'foos', there are a few ppl that understand that "term" hahaha.

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newayz, good luck in US dansen!

wunnie, yourstruly,jurene, erica, dansen, lee, raymond, ROBERT (i still dont know his name lol)
all foundation mates except wunnie.

dansen, mua, erica.

omg time flies. it seems like it was just yesterday when i just stepped into the class not knowing any of you. and then ended up hanging out with this whole bunch. and then erica left for imu after foundation. then i stayed back another semester for i failed accounting lol. and you guys proceeded to year 1. and then i passed accountings for goodness sake. had no friends in the class. realised that dansen's taking the same subjects. became group mates and then assignment mates. and then silly me threw tantrums all the time lol.

dansy, glad that you popped by to er...disallow me from taking lunch lol. and erica's sudden flyingoutofnowhere and screaming but ended up with me talking to another person without feeling surprised hahaha.

i'll surely miss those lame jokes of yours that cracked me up during morning classes. and also sorry for creating chaos in the lab such as adding wrong substances or pouring the important solution into the sink. ps: i burnt my fingernail fewdays ago during lab lol. damn funny la. got those burnt hair smell. burnt keratin (see i concentrated in class dansy!)

i miss those moments where i attended 8am class with you and you always thought i was concentrating in class until one fine day, you realised that i didnt flip the notes for more than 45minutes. and you realised that i was actually, sleeping in disguise hahahahahahahahahahaha.

ahakz! back toooooo doing reports. will be back sOON! ehehe

2008-09-04T20:44:00.002+08:00

I haven't updated in a while......haha

August 08
assignments (done)
field trip reports (done)
presentations (done)
finals (done)
short break (done)
results (done)
start new sem (done)
forget tig and tou (done.......just kidding teeheeee)

that explains my disappearance hahhaha. not like this semester isn't hectic....im having my finals (AGAIN) next month hahaha. short semester ma....

i need to SCORE and not a get a normal pass. i need to be more responsible in my life. i want to be someone who's striving for the best instead of striving for a mediocre achievement.

i need to put it into actions instead of mere words.

i guess i am somehow addicted to being busy. hahhaha. must train myself into coping with stress ma....or else i'll be getting gastrics during ever finals like how i always will.....

2008-09-03T04:28:00.002+08:00

Been suffering from diarrhea ever since I came back from Penang.

Or maybe stomach pain? Coz I've been struggling to "push" things out from my stomach but I guess they love me too much. Those poos not wanting to leave me. Wtf.

You know something turning your intestines with complimentary "kuru-kulu" sound inside and you feel so full of shit because you could feel them just 0.5 cm away from your asshole but still they just wouldn't leave you for knnccb's sake.

Yea, something like that. Sounds gross, but that's exactly how I'm feeling okay. =(

I think Penang's food is overrated. IT WASN'T THAT NICE OKAY !
Or maybe those places that I went just suck.
Somemore made me suffer from stomach ache wor. Could it be even worse? Cis.

I wanna go shopping but I just remember someone's birthday is just a week away ! Yea, just came across my mind this afternoon k. I'm terrible. Hehehe. Yet, I'm so fucking broke now. Gotta restock contact lenses summore. =(

How neh? Haiz.

2008-08-29T19:45:00.001+08:00

Reflection

2008-08-22T20:54:00.002+08:00

I found a post from a blog of a client of mine. It was soooo reflecting what i'm feeling. The very very first thing in my mind upon reading it was to grab it to post in here. So i'm posting it here now. Hopefully she doesn't find out ;) haha if she really does, please allow me to post it here!

It's quite long anyway... :)

"have you ever realize that its just so hard to please every single person in our lives. to me , it is. its just toooooo hard that sometimes it makes me feel that im useless (or the either way, stupid) when i failed to please them. EVER SINGLE TIME, i tried my best, to satisfy someone else’s needs. their needs, what they expect from me, what they want from me, the people around me, especially my love ones. and whenever i failed them, my heart aches even more. i was convinced that IT IS POSSIBLE to please everyone around me, AH, not exactly everyone, but 99.99% of them. ( you are very ‘lucky’ to be the 0.01% ) anyways, as i’v said earlier, i dont think it is an impossible task. till one day, i was crushed by the one i love the most (maybe, maybe not) very badly, physically and emotionally. ( not to blame that person alone but that person is the worst case in my entire life) AND from that day onwards, i kept telling this to myself “yeah, IT IS AN IMPOSSIBLE TASK’ .i learnt to let go, to keep my one eye shut, to ignore, to forget, i’v learnt to keep my distance. i force myself to believe that not everyone i this world would need me, maybe they are just better off without me? yeah, exactly. im just no-one in their life, so why do i have to care for them so much that i hurt myself in the end? i really hate myself sometimes(maybe most of the time). often i ask myself, what have i done wrong to deserve this? i want to know the answer so badly. is it a sin to love and care for the one i love? i cherish every single person in my life, yes i do, but i cant plese everyone of them, can i? (??) now i’v learnt to give in less and sometimes give up on (others or myself- i’m not sure) . I’v learnt to keep myself from any possible danger, stay in my comfort zone but at the same time still holding on the little faith that has left in me to go on with my social happy-go-lucky life. i do not like to wear the mask. i know i dont have to, no one force me too, but the problem is, im too used to wearing the clown mask to please ppl while deep inside, im crying half dead. until now, i still do not understand why people can do such cruel things, spread rumors, create stories , twist their words, remember ONLY bad things and act as if i was never once appeared in their life and im not worth mentioning after all those times that I GAVE IN AND TRIED MY VERY BEST TO PLEASE THEM IN EVERY ASPECT of their life. to be there for them when they need someone to talk to, to be there when they needed any help etc. i would do my very best, to put them in my priority list. to get things done perfecty for them. to be there, ALWAYS, to feel the joy, the sadness in them. i smiled. i laughed. i hugged them. i tell them i do care, i love them and will be always there for them no matter what.wtf, what do i get in the end? YET i still believe in long lasting friendship, relationships and LOVE. i still do believe in fairy tales, happily ever after romance ( sily me) eventhough i’v been through so much in life. poeple let me down, people kicked and ignore me in their lives. aah, i feel so terrible, horrible. it kills. please dont do it to protect your lies, to cover up your stories,i just cant help it. i dont know why i still cant get over the memories, i forgive but i have not forget. others tend to listen to rumors, false accusations, they rather believe what their best friend told them without even check or investigate for the truth. they are blind folded. i would say, they sometimes do not want to accept the truth just because the truth is sometimes cruel and unbelievable. i also spent time trying to understand why people behave the way they do - why they tell lies, why they make up fictitious sources.WHY? why must they hurt others to make themsel perfect? aaa nvm, i always believe that the truth will reveal itself someday, somehow..(wtf). i smiled and posted up nice post, nice pictures, dress up nicely, jump around and act like an idiot at times, it doesnt mean that the hurt is gone, the wound is healed. it doesnt mean that im truly happy,(yes im contented with my life now, no doubt about it) life is good, life is great if you know how to live life to the fullest. but somehow, i dont know how, but somehow…i will feel emotional when im alone, especially in the dark. coz all the memories will once again hunt me down. my heart still ache, the tears still flow as if it has just happened a while ago. the wound still bleed. goshed. i don’t know how to put them in words. im sure that im not the only person in the world that experience this. But thank God that I know my own weaknesses and I KNOW THAT I MUST control my emotions (if not, i’m sure i will get into depression. i am 100% sure of that) i know i cant compare my life to others, they may have been through a whole lot of shit in their lives too. far worst then mine. i know. everyone has their own journey, their own purpose in life. their own thinking. all of the things, i knw, is out of human control. but i still hold on. I still do, for miracles to happen. i do pray, yes a lot. i do not pray loudly, in front of everyone or in what-so-ever special time in a day. i pray in my heart, i dont have to shut my eyes while praying,i can look at the people around me, pray while smiling at them (its up to me) i talk to God in my heart. praying for miracles all the time.

what/who really matters and what/who doesn’t at all? i’m still confused."

Errrr if the author happens to see this and didn't like it here, please tell me so i'll remove it k.

2008-08-20T22:28:00.003+08:00

Finally, some air for meeeee to breatheee after 1 wholeeeeee hectic sem....

I can finally meet up with those who're leaving for UK next monthhhh....and also attend gatherings that i'd missed for all these months hahaha. thats if there are still gatherings for me. im blacklisted already haha.

it also seems that i havent talked to people other than my family members recently that I just CANT STOP TALKING to whoever I saw today hahahaha.

i dont know why i always fail to deal with the stress. i had to let the stress take over me every time. sigh. btw, what cracked me up in the morning before i went for the 2 paperss was....

Michelin's advert hehehehe.......

Michelin sounds like Michelle.
"Tayar TAHAN LAMA"
=P *dont slap me*

Mwahahaha

2008-08-15T06:16:00.001+08:00

I'm still awake! Yayyy! Champion!

Coz i had loads of tasks complete.
Coz i don't wanna be late for class.
Coz i'm a bloody hard-headed nutcase who accepts no advice on going slow in my job

Coz it's not my job.
Coz you have no same personality as mine.
Coz i'm a follower of idealism, hence the forever over-stressed life.

I wanna go for a holiday. But only me, and maybe Kiko (my dear bolster).

No, that's not coz i dislike people around me.
I just seemed to have lost time for myself =(

To-do list:
- Mani & pedi
- Hair treatment
- Scrub
- Mask
- Put on whitening cream (it's been a trillion years ago since i last put those on my body, so yay)
- Gym (same case)
- Shopping; i miss shopping =(
- Spend time with family
- Spend time with bf (without the sour stressed out face, he'd be happy to see this)
- Catch up with friends (it's been a long long time yeah...)
- Stalk other blogs (passion dying out soon)
- Sleep (very very deprived of)
- Yamcha
- Yamcha
- Yamcha
- Yamcha
- Take stock
- Take stock
- Take stock
- Take stock
- Take stock
- Take stock
- Take stock
- Restock
- Restock
- Restock
- Restock
- Restock
- Restock
- Restock
- Take photo
- Take photo
- Take photo
- Take photo
- Take photo
- Take photo
- Ugly, retake
- Ugly, retake
- Ugly, retake
- Ugly, retake
- Ugly, retake
- Ugly, retake
- Ugly, retake
- Ugly, retake
- Ugly, retake
- Photoshop
- Photoshop
- Photoshop
- Photoshop
- Photoshop
- Photoshop
- Photoshop
- Photoshop
- Post blog entry
- Post blog entry
- Post blog entry
- Post blog entry
- Post blog entry
- Post blog entry
- Post blog entry
- Post blog entry
- Post blog entry
- Post blog entry
- Reply Email
- Reply Email
- Reply Email
- Reply Email
- Reply Email
- Reply Email
- Reply Email
- Reply Email
- Reply Email
- Reply Email
- Reply Email
- Reply SMS
- Reply SMS
- Reply SMS
- Reply SMS
- Reply SMS
- Reply SMS
- Reply SMS
- Reply SMS
- COD
- COD
- COD
- COD
- COD
- COD
- COD
- Mail parcels
- Mail parcels
- Mail parcels
- Mail parcels
- Mail parcels
- Mail parcels
- Mail parcels
- Mail parcels
- Mail parcels
- Mail parcels
- Do tutorials

You see why i have no time to even pamper myself?
Fortunately, i still have time to do the last item on the list.. err goodbye i'm doing it now.

2008-08-07T21:58:00.000+08:00

Stop and stareeeeeee
you start to wonder why youre here not thereeeeeeeeeee

2008-08-03T01:43:00.002+08:00

Down with sorethroat, flu and fever aka "common cold" ? LOL

=(

Btw, note to my friends, drive safe especially on this month coz you know lar. According to the chinese calender, the 7th month is the creepiest month ever. Not that I'm superstitious or whatever, but better be ready than you're sorry. Look at that scary accident on the Connaught Highway and one I witnessed myself in Sunway. There was this guy lying motionless beside the highway with his bike crashed. I don't know whether he was still alive or not but I hope he was. And on that moment itself, I felt butterflies in my stomach. At the same time, I felt sad. =(

LALALALA

Drive safe lar okay.
Bye.

2008-07-31T13:33:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired from my early morning till late evening classes.

Also my tutorial work. YES ! I do my tute work wan okay !

Now I can't even rest on weekends because of my block teachings on SAT AND SUN !!!

:((((((((((

No classes skipped............... so far...

Keep up the good work Chelle. Hehehe.

Time to sleep. Goodnight. :)

Who Am I - Casting Crowns

2008-07-30T21:18:00.007+08:00

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind

Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

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I tried to see, I TRIED, but all i saw was another repetition. A leopard never changes its spots.

maybe i shouldn't let it get the best of me. PERHAPS I should take this as something minor? ah.....give me some time.

its beyond my control.

but right now im so =(

2008-07-27T21:13:00.002+08:00

laurence's a nice guyyyyy hahahahahahaha =D

ive got a sense that its tooo big for me.

aussie kids arent soooo big-sized right???

2008-07-25T17:20:00.002+08:00

im updating in the midst of theneverendingassignments.

again, i turned down a rendezvous with a friend of mine whos leaving in a months' time. *smacks head*

i havent seen her since....november/december? goshhhh

no wonder my friends are all leaving me for other countries because im a bad friend T_T

how i wish time could stand still just so i can put workloads aside and just meet up with friends who are gonna leave soon, bestie's bday, etc.

ive missed out so much and ammmm gonna miss out MUCH MORE. =(

can everything just wait for me?? =(

im so left behind

2008-07-24T21:22:00.002+08:00

There are a few important people in my life.

And I have to disappoint that 2 important people in my life.

I'm sorry that I have to sacrifice you both for my assignments. I know how important the celebrationS are to you both but I just somehow decided to choose that over your birthday and BIG day.

I'll make it up to you both.... I PROMISE. if not, just kill me :P

SORRY

2008-07-22T19:26:00.003+08:00

From today onwards, yours truly will be a busy beeeeee. have never been this busy in my life, but am loving the activities ahead :P. those activities are not clubbing or shopping etc. its related to what i've been wanting and dreaming to do.

though it'll be hectic, but i love the trips. hohohoh. and these are what ive been waiting for sinceeee 2 years ago. hehe.

will update once time permits.

ps: Fergie's finally is nice though its so unfergielicious. me love.

2008-07-22T04:19:00.002+08:00

I just had this weirdest ~~nightmare~~ dream which woke me up from my deep sleep.

You see, I have this friend in real life who's real bimbotic (identity remains anonymous =p) appears to be married in my dream. Not just that, she also owns a pair of cutey twin daughters, probably an accident due to too much of sex.

Blablabla. Fast forward to the dream.

One day I was sitting in this car with this girl and some other friends for some usual outing. From no where, the topic of her twin babies came into the picture where she then decided to call her aunt (who's supposed to babysit the babies when she's away) for confirmation whether the girls are alright because this friend of mine actually left them ALONE in the house before the aunt came to take over because she FORGOT to call her to come (HOLY MAMA). She failed to get the aunt through mobile and then we decided to get back to her place and check whether everything is alright.

The babies were no where to be found and as a friend I was REAL WORRIED and SCARED in the dream. To my surprise, my friend appears to be very calm, in fact still in her happy jolly molly polly mood.

Then the next thing I knew was we were at some restaurant enjoying our food, continuing our supposed outing. My friend continued her bimbotic acts of laughing and crapping as usual even though the rest of us were worried of the whereabouts of her babies.

DAMN WTF RIGHT?!

I know it doesn't sound bimbo enough. Sorry, I'm never good in describing.
Afterall it was just a damn DREAM larrrr, but you see, she's so bimbotic she's now haunting me bimbotically even in my dreams lorrrr.

I can't sleep dy. Damn scary weiii. =(

I'm entitled to Twenty Four millions Five Hundred Thousand United State Dollars

2008-07-21T09:15:00.002+08:00

Hmmm mmmph... I received this in my inbox today:

I am Mr. Wong Tang director of operations of the Hang Seng Bank Ltd. I have an urgent business suggestion for you.
I honestly apologize and hope I do not cause you much embarrassment by contacting you through this means for a transaction of this magnitude, but this is due to confidentiality and prompt access reposed on this medium.Furthermore, due to this issue on my hands now, it became necessary for me to seek your assistance, and it is imperative for me to know your opinion.

My client late Mr., Badri Patarkatsishvili business man and the richest man in Georgia made a fix deposit for 18 calendar months, with a value
of Twenty Four millions Five Hundred Thousand United State Dollars only in my branch. Upon maturity several notice was sent to him to come and make the withdrawer of this funds but due to is involvement in a failed coup against president Mikheil Saakashvili, which make him to flee to Uk where he later died he was unable to come for the withdrawer of this funds, as the main reason am contacting you is because Mr. Badri Patarkatsishvili did not declare any next of kin in his official papers including the paper work of his bank deposit. And he also confided in me the last time he was at my office that no one except me knew of his deposit in my bank. So, Twenty Four millions Five Hundred Thousand United State Dollars is still lying in my bank and no one will ever come forward to claim it. What bothers me most is that according to the laws of my country at the expiration 3 years the funds will revert to the ownership of the Hong Kong Government if nobody applies to claim the funds. Against this backdrop, my sugges
tion to you is that I will like you as a foreigner to stand as the next of kin to Mr. Badri Patarkatsishvili so that you will be able to receive his funds.

Should you be interested I will prefer you to reach me on my private email address below mainlandch12 @ yahoo.com.hk

and finally after that I shall provide you with more details of this operation.
Your earliest response to this letter will be appreciated.
Kind Regards,

Wong Tang

So kind of you Mr Wong for offering me that MUCH of money.
Seems like not only English movie directors like to name Mr Wong as their character, now even scammers are in favour of that name ;)

2008-07-21T01:05:00.001+08:00

I'm back from the so-called paradise, Krabi Island.
But I'm not that happy as I thought I would be.
Why ar?
Sigh. =(

2008-07-20T20:22:00.002+08:00

things always dont end up the way i expected. fixing things up will eventually lead to another massive disastrous misunderstanding.

its communication that has been an obstacle all along between you and me.

its so hard to define people-people interactions.

uni life is not what i thought it'd be back in highschool. assumptions made were plain assumptions when in real life, uni life is far more complicated that those we had or watched in the dramas.

and this is just a part and parcel of life. what will my working environment be if i stilll dont learn how to deal with such situations?

i need to grow up to cope with a lifee that needs nothing more than a facade that conceals what kinda person i am.

im feeling disappointed and numb when things have been replaying all over again, like a filmstrip. a drama that's been repeatedly aired over and over again.

=(

I have 9 uncleared summons

2008-07-16T19:38:00.001+08:00

My dad's gonna kill me.

Blacklisted already T_T

2008-07-16T14:53:00.003+08:00

every girl's gonna kill me muahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

i calculated whatever that's calculate-able in my diet lol.

and my FAT intakeeee and protein intake exceeded the recommended daily valueeeee.

and if you know me in real life or have seen me before in real life, youre so gonna.....kill meeeee for being able to consume fatty food withhhhouttttt wooorrying hahaha.

okla, should be worried about the cholesterol and stuffs but stilllll!! hahahahahahahaha

must reduceee my meattt intake already and take more carbohydrate-enriched foods. hohohohohoh

lalalallalallalaaaaaaaa rudolphhhhh the redddddd noseeeeeee reindeeeeeerrrrrrrr i cannnnnnnn eaaaaaaaattttttt withoutttttttt worriessssssssssssssss. lol

p.s: c and v pls dont be jealous :P

bye!

2008-07-15T12:16:00.003+08:00

in this crowd. i felt odd. like a crocodile in a bird farm.

no one talks to me. nor would anyone even like to communicate with me. maybe im just sensitive. but its been going on for godknowshowlong.

in a way, i felt used. used as in, only being talked to when theres a need or when there's only two of us.

true friends are hard to find. and im luckily to have found a few that until this day, i can still count on them. maybe im used to having these kinda bonds that when i mix with others and dont get treated the same way, i felt like im not being appreciated. and when i felt less appreciated, i felt soooo left out.

or maybe im a very rather boring person. whatever i say, seems to be lame or crappy to them. but whatever the others say, it'd be a great joke to them.

or maybe we're just of different worlds. so unclickable.

i guess by talking less would be better rather than making myself like an irritating fella trying to chip into conversations where my voice is none of anyone's consent.

or maybe i just havent learnt the art of surviving in today's cruel world where MOST of the people are so untrue.

i miss seeing tigtagtouers where their love comes in abundance. =(

afterrrrr a year...

2008-07-08T21:01:00.003+08:00

ive been, in a way, talking much to my uni mates lately rather than only talk to them whenever i need to. and ive been joining them for lunch after classes pretty much lately instead of going home after classses. one of them, who's a left-handed said that lefties can understand/memorize things through illustrations/colours/etc.

so you know what i did lar? i visited the bookshop kinda frequently to get colourful pens and highlighters. and "beautify" my notes hahahaha.

and it does work. with thoseee colourfulll notes, i find it easier to understand what im studying and that my mind doesnt go blankk when im studying those black-white-notes lol.

and the results of my tests are better than what i predicted lol.

Free driver, anyone? =P

2008-06-28T06:57:00.003+08:00

"How a person masters his fate is more important than what his fate is"
by Wilhelm von Humboldt

I couldn't sleep. Probably i'm used to the late sleeping and last min. studying already. But the time spent tonite is well worthy coz i found some new enlightenments in life =) and i see a new light guiding my path (literally). Not a clear one, though. Need some efforts and that's so after my finals and the perhentian trip. *Hopefully not another unachievable resolution to self, since this' been happening way too many times lol*

I swear perhentian trip gonna turn me into a roasted khinzir (add on those tannings i got from both the cherating & malacca trip T_T). I'm also very very ~~fat~~ chubby (yea rite) already. Cannot wear bikini lor =/ My plan to slim down by "detox" seems to have failed. Slimmed down the wrong parts hoho. Actually some of the seemingly "fats" are bloody muscles i gained from gym. Damn sad made me look fatter.

My gym trainer once told me,
"you have short limbs, easy to build muscles.
You - excellent material for muscle builder.
You want me to train you into a lady muscle builder?"

Me: O_______________O *speechless*

I WILL NEVER WANT THOSE MUSCLES T_T

I wanna go to Urbanscapes tmr! (the marketplace) I even printed out the map to go there =( but i'm kinda broke and the bf has to study. I should ask other ppl but i'm too lazy to drive since i haven't sleep now must be very sleepy by then. But i feel like goin, so if anyone's willing to fetch me there later (starts @ 12pm and entry to marketplace is free!) please ajak me kay =P

It's in KLPAC, Sentul West btw. Link

2008-06-28T05:25:00.004+08:00

I can't say I'm feeling-less towards it.
I can't say I'm 100 percent over it.
I'm quite clueless with what I want.
I'm screwed up.

How could you pretend like nothing happened between us before?
And how could I act the same like you? Sigh.

2008-06-28T01:08:00.001+08:00

I wanna go Urbanscapes =/

2008-06-26T23:07:00.001+08:00

i'd banish workloads from colleges/universities if i were the minister of education.

2008-06-24T16:41:00.004+08:00

I love you

You love me
We are happy family

Muahahahahahahahaha
Sounds familiar?
Yeaps, I'm the cutey purple monster............ Barney !!!!!!
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Sorry, I guess I'm being a lil obsessed over the color purple now.

Why so?

Jeng jeng jeng~~

Yeaps yeaps.
This is MY room.
Just got my bedroom revamped by splashing the walls with purple paint.

I'm so purplefied that even my new water heater is in purple.
Wehehehehehehe.

I'm so in a purplish mood.
Anyone up for the Chelle's Purple Foundation Charity Drive?
I need sponsors for my Ikea trip. =p

2008-06-24T02:49:00.012+08:00

Guess what 'm doing right now?

Study? Uh huh. That's what i was doing 2 hours ago.

Another guess?
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Well...

I'm filing my nails hahaha.

(in case you dunno what's filing, it's grinding and shaping the nails, manicure la in a general saying)

I know, you wanna ask why am i doing such unproductive thing(s) (like blogging now?) when finals is like one and a half days to go.

Haha i dunnnnnnoooooo why! Actually i just did a hair treatment 5 hours ago, napped till 5pm just now and i'm about to put on some hand cream now.... *you mind*

Ohhhkay done =)

~~And i just thought long nails would affect me doing the exam questions~~. Ahh ignore this bimbotic statement although i really thought of how i'll be unable to hold my pen properly with long nail tips. Ok ok ignore me. -_-

I love M-A-C. I lurveeee the Marc Jacobs Stam bag! (Me is fashion lagging)
I want to fix my teeth (but scared, hence so small font).

I hate rats and cramps.

Absolutely random, but a rat had to bite a hole in my new Bioglo Day Emulsion i just bought a week ago and i had to throw it away and the Stam is gorgeous though a lil out-of-date and i saw one "Stam-inspired" bag in Motivi some time ago and regretted not buying coz i love the design so much.

And now i finally captured my inspiration to finish the remaining two chapters.

So... buh bye and (Gossip Girl season 2 will be out on 1st September! Can't wait =D)

Psssst! =P

P/s: Good luck in your first paper, my dear ;)

2008-06-22T20:26:00.004+08:00

My concentration is slowly wearing off...
The screamings accompanied by water splashing sounds downstairs agitates me.

I was supposed to finish revising chapter 8 by now but i'm stuck at 7.

It's my bro's belated birthday party downstairs.
But why kids nowadays like playing water during their celebrations?
Aren't they supposed to be playing music chair or some retarded newspaper hitting game?
Well, those were my childhood party games. too old fashioned by now, i guess.

Btw,
Hasn't anyone notice that kids this generation love spending money?
In my olden days, what we need was just a couple of chairs and only an issue of newsapaper.
But now, they play with water! Water expensive wei.
Also, computer, that uses loads of electricity when its rate has increased.
PSP, Wii and all the electronic gadgets (of which i don't even have *being bitter here*)

Not only that. few days back i went to a futsal centre in USJ1 and there was a bunch of primary school kids playing futsal. and they were wearing Adidas, Nike, all the nice expensive futsal shoes eh? I so envy kids, they're so lucky these days.

Speaking of which, Taylor's implementing a new dress code which disallows slippers and sandals in campus. Means i'd need a new pair of sport shoes! Tee hee great reason to add on a new member to my small lil shoes family, aint it? ;P

Ohh no i think i digressed way too far. Actually wanted to say that bro's friends kinda made me pissed for squirting water on me but i forgive him (since he's getting way cuter heheheh).

I'm going out to study now. ciao and loves to my ttters ;o)

2008-06-22T18:52:00.003+08:00

through thick and thin, tall and ~~short~~, ~~fat~~ and thin, fair and.....lovely

we're still one. and nothing's gonna change the fact that i love you both, my dragonflies.

should there be any feuds in future, i hope we'd all fix things up, as long as there're no knives and pistols involved. hehz.

woiiiiii! i missssss trio-camwhoring sessions, unfortunately, due to "unforeseen" circumstances, my hair's innnnnnnnnn a nasty condition! give me 3 monthsss ok!!

2008-06-19T18:59:00.001+08:00

when six becomes three......

=)

am happy that we're able to make it thhis time around for the very first time.

you know, i know, we know, then can already hehe =P

2008-06-17T22:05:00.002+08:00

Im drugged with jason mraz's i'm yours.

maybe i just aint kiasu enough

2008-06-14T23:59:00.005+08:00

i wouldnt idolize any of my peers for i know, no matter how well we do now, we're still human!

to me, everyone of the same education level is of the same level of bossing around thereby bossssssssssssssssssssing around shouldnt have even taken place in the very first place.

you cant think that someone in your course is inferior to you.

but what if someone doesn't meet your expectations or isnt erm on the same par with you?

do you degrade that someone because you felt that he/she doesn't do things the way that you do?

i was neverrrrrrrr someone whom you believed in when it came to working things together.
how can i even be someone that you'll believe in today. when you're stilllll so skeptical of my work.

i do have my flaws in doing things just like everyone else. i can't give you a super duper uber perfect work because im not a professor. you can pinpoint my mistakes but pls, not in a harsh way. im not a rock thats able to withstand thornful words and accusations.

how many people have you hurt in the process of zooming towards your goal of kiasuness?

=(

learn to lose if you want to win with victory. (theotheronelar, 2008)

2008-06-12T21:10:00.002+08:00

I did badly for both FM and AISFM.

Not joking this time. It's impossible I could pass the subjects by leaving more than half of the questions not done. Sigh.

Maybe I really should consider dropping finance. I'm never good dealing with numbers. It was a mistake to take up a course which I'm really weak at. Sigh again.

Mon and Cap on the 18th, then I'll be free like a bird. Wish me luck aites?!

Btw, my old blog is revived. Same old url. Message me if you couldn't recall. ;P

-Chellez-

2008-06-12T15:28:00.004+08:00

Yawning was onceeee an activity i found comfortable when i was sleepy. but not in these days. yawning could be this difficult. let alone opening my mouth for food.

sleeping could be suffering as well with constant wakeups from pain and fever. T_T

how to speed up the recovery woi?

swollen lymph nodes. hahaha i feel like explaining in terms of science instead of those chinese old folks' myth that this is due to heat.

it's the infection that causes fever. not the other way round.

warning: if you cant take scientific terms, don't continue reading hahah.

if im not mistaken, it's due to the white blood cells(lymphocytes or leukocytes?) that are responsible for the invasions of pathogens, invaders, whatsoever. They "eat" up the invaders. But i think my whiteblood cells lost in the battle. Thus, the invaders took over lar. then erm....my neck swells and fever strikes.

bye

2008-06-09T09:05:00.006+08:00

Will be having my CB exam in 4 and a half hours time but my brain doesn't seem to be working at all. Cognitive learning, whatever diffusion crap.

:S

Couldn't seem to recall what I read and worse still, I couldn't cramp any more info into my pity lil brain.

Don't laugh at me if I flunk CB okay. I know it's easy but I'm stupid. Can?

I have a fetish for this smelly towel. =p
Totally random. Just to scare the crap out of you.
I like or you like?

Exam stress. Brrrrrrrr.

2008-06-08T00:52:00.003+08:00

right now, my life is more than that of a colourful rainbow.

this seems so surreal to me.

and im sooo laid back in time that i really cant catch up with the pace, the speed of light me drinking jasmine tea, 1L.

p.s: can anyone teach me how to html-ize the strikeouts?

2008-06-06T19:16:00.002+08:00

hellooo :P

im backkk with the brand newwww rapppp blog.... *sorry dont know how to strike out*

cant think of anything to begin with, ive been really cranky from all the assignments, reports and tests.

i guess i shall just scream this to the whole wide world that i love my fellow ttters.

2008-06-06T06:47:00.003+08:00

7 in the morning ady lor.

And my eyes is not even half-closed.

Die-soft. =S

Sorry for spamming larrrr. I'm damn bored okay.

Stupid insomnia. Must be exams stress and lack of "pork" consumption lately. =p

Finals start next Monday. *gulps*

2008-06-06T03:41:00.003+08:00

Dedicated to the loveS

Here I am - Leona Lewis

This is a crazy world

These can be lonely times
It's hard to know who's on your side
Most of the time

Who can you really trust
Who do you really know
Is there anybody out there
Who can make you feel less alone
Some times you just can't make it on your own

If you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, hmmm

If you have broken dreams
Just lay them all on me
I'll be the one who understands
So take my hand

If you reach emptyness

You know I'll do my best
To fill you up with all the love
That I can show someone
I promise you you'll never walk alone

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, oooo

Everybody needs somebody who
keep a heart and soul in two

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, Here I am

I think it's appropriate to finally put this up right?
Hehehe. Won't take this down anymore okay?
No grudges held alright? =p

P/s: I miss you gals so much right now...

2008-06-05T22:34:00.004+08:00

Message from v (not tou),

Will be making the layout for this blog in the very near future.
Probably after her finals or during the study week.
Not a single idea has come through her occupied mind, so ideas are utmost welcomed.

Buh bye.

Starting her derivatives and securities market assignment, due tomorrow 12 noon. Haha *bitter laugh*

P/s: She's missing her fellow ttt-ers

2008-06-05T03:40:00.003+08:00

I never know it would hurt that much to just have a simple peep into life before my existence.
I'm only human and there's a line that one shouldn't cross in order to avoid getting hurt.
Learning to protect ourself is one thing, but barriers are often over-crossed and strings got loose.

No, I'm not emo.

Because everything else ignored, there's a light in front of me.
One that could brighten up my life from what it used to be.
It may not be perfect, but you know I'm grateful for what I have now.
Lots of love to tranquility that makes my day every morning.
=)

2008-06-05T03:08:00.003+08:00

Lalalala.

Greetings people, bimbos, dumbos, nerds, geeks, wannabes, gays, lesbos and the list goes on...

Guess what, I'm back for good... or maybe not?

Sorry for locking my previous blog without informing. No, I'm not blogging secretly, cursing you behind my back and bitching about issues. I've STOPPED blogging in the previous one and me decided to lock it due to certain unpredictable circumstances. You know lar, people tend to stumble upon your blog out of no where. Who knows maybe one day my dad will go like; "Hey gal, I didn't know you hated me so much until I read your blog yesterday !" =.= (no, I'm NOT referring this statement to anyone =P).

So that's one of the many reasons I stopped blogging and I thought I'd leave this blogging community for life, until the thought of co-blogging with my babes came to light. =) Privacy restrictions are still gonna be imposed anyway as anything that's available on the web is never safe enough.

Just fyi, this is gonna be a personal blog about daily happenings, opinions and views based on own thoughts and rantings filled with emotions. C'mon, this is a girl's blog after all. Don't expect me to be like KennySia. I can't. ;)

Layout are yet to be done until our little miss Veron is free from assignments and exam stress. Meanwhile, this blog is still under construction.

Stay tuned peeps. Till then.
Chellez signing off.
Much love to the other TigTagTou-ers. =)

2008-05-30T23:06:00.002+08:00

this co-blog has yet to be officially launched haha. the layout's stilll undone.

Thanksss V(TOU) for the layout hahaha *though she hasnt started it yet. but must pressurize her hahaha!*

i love you tigtagtouers. stop spamming k? hahahaha

2008-05-29T18:12:00.001+08:00

Final Testing

My tigtagtou-ers love me =P

2008-05-28T21:42:00.000+08:00

Testing #3

I hate my fellow tigtagtou-ers. =p

2008-05-28T12:41:00.000+08:00

Testing #2

I love my fellow tigtagtou-ers. =)

2008-05-26T19:13:00.001+08:00

TESTING!